Going to a friends house
- Normal people: What a lovely home you have
- Me: Whats your wifi password?
I’ma just leave this here.
This is how everything happened,
So, I was at my friend’s house this one day. We hear a knock on the door and we see these two guys. It was my friend’s friends. I told my friend that one of em’ was pretty cute. I was giving him little glances whenever he looks away. He was so cute! Never knew I would be friends with him. But one day, when I got on Facebook, he sent me a friend request! I didn’t talk to him until April 18th. Funny how I remember the date. Right when we spoke, I knew this guy was worth being friends with. I didn’t regret speaking to him first. I was pretty GLAD that I hit him up first. Couple days later, I asked for his number and all. We couldn’t stop texting. We would text everyday, morning till’ end. I remember our first phone call together. We would send each other good morning texts and good night texts. I was the first one who called him “baby.” I rarely do that to any nigga. But he was actually flattered that I called him that name. From there, every of our texts were corny af. Talking about how we miss each other and all of that stuff. He called me his everything, his “mi amor”, his girl. I was pretty flattered! Each and everyday I was growing feelings. It sucks how we barely see each other. Since he lives in Kent and I live in Fed. But I just told myself that he’s worth it and stayed. I told myself to not give up either. When I saw him after 2-3 weeks, we couldn’t keep our hands off each other! We were holding hands, kissing on the cheek. We watched Think Like A Man and had our first photo booth picture together. My feelings grew so much. I knew that this wasn’t just a little crush, it was more than that. A few days later, I saw him at the mall. So un-expected! We spent an hour together. I didn’t care how much time we had, it can just be for a minute and i’ll be fine. That day, we had our first kiss. I didn’t kiss a guy since.. 7th grade! I cherished that moment. After that, we haven’t seen each other. But we didn’t stop talking. That’s where I had doubts. That’s where I started going downhill. That’s where I started to over think. Honestly, I felt like he can do better than me. I feel not good enough to him. He can find a girl who’s NOT an emotional wreck like me. I expect way to high. I protect what’s mine too much. Even though he called me “perfect”, I didn’t feel it. What’s so special about me? Hm? I didn’t trust him at all. I’m not going to lie, but I don’t trust NO dick anymore. Ever since I’ve gotten hurt in the past by so many guys, I don’t know who to fucking trust anymore. His friends would come up to me and say that he’s not like other guys. Honestly, those words would go into my ear and out the other. My guards are way up for any guy now. My past got me fucked up. For the past days, I’ve been thinking to just straight up end it. It was one of the hardest decisions I had to make. I really like this guy and I ended it. By the look of it, I feel like I made a mistake but at the same time, I feel like it was best for me. You’re leaving Washington in August. I’m looking for someone I can be with for a long time and i’m not trying to have a long distance relationship. Another reason is that I don’t trust you. Seems like YOU don’t care sometimes. Sigh. I don’t even know anymore. I miss you, a lot. I’m not going to chase anymore. We don’t know what’s going to happen in the future. Oh well.
